Lindsey & Pete from Kyle Garrett on Vimeo.
Friday, March 11, 2011
Our Wedding, January 30th 2011
Here is a snapshot of our wedding, done by my very talented friend Kyle Garrett. So excited to have this and watch it over and over again. I love it!! He totally captured our day...I don't know how to make it bigger!!
RIGHT NOW.
I'm sure this post will sound pretty dramatic. But I want to remember this morning when I look back on old posts.
I had a moment this morning that comes sporadically. The moment that you just need to cry because it feels really good.
I know it sounds so hormonal, (hello!! this sounds pretty common when you're pregnant) but it feels so much more then that. To me it feels like being alive, when for a second I STOP.....................
and have real emotion, that may just be Gods way of getting me to take it all in and the good gifts that surround me. When no one else is around and I'm overwhelmed with life and everything that we take for granted. And the way our breath just comes so naturally unless something happens to our health. I have to have these times or else I will do life and forget to take a look around at where I am right now. I look back on seasons that have come and gone, and wish for them again, or wish we would have at least appreciated them more while they were here. Like looking back on old pictures when my nieces were little tiny girls with baby faces, and how they are growing up and learning more and more about life everyday....or how it's easy to find and dwell on the negative things, or the things that bother us about things in our life that we wish could change. I want to live in each moment and be present, be thankful for what life has for us right now. Not dwell or hang onto the past, or anticipate the future to the point of forgetting about right now, the moment that I will never have again.
"Be here now, no other place to be, all the doubts that linger, just set them free, and let good things happen, let the future come, into each moment like the rising sun..." ~ Mason Jennings.
Sometimes I have an overwhelming feeling of everything that I want to do, and i feel like life moves so quickly, and i'm lost as to where to start. I have to remember that it's ok to rest now, because i'm tired ....and my body is already working really hard to make this little baby. It is a season of rest. And that is good. Sometimes inspiration comes and takes over the bones and i have to remind myself to stay put. But it doesnt mean that these dreams exist for no reason. In fact, I am confident that these desires are placed inside for a reason, and in the right season will come to fruition.
I had a moment this morning that comes sporadically. The moment that you just need to cry because it feels really good.
I know it sounds so hormonal, (hello!! this sounds pretty common when you're pregnant) but it feels so much more then that. To me it feels like being alive, when for a second I STOP.....................
and have real emotion, that may just be Gods way of getting me to take it all in and the good gifts that surround me. When no one else is around and I'm overwhelmed with life and everything that we take for granted. And the way our breath just comes so naturally unless something happens to our health. I have to have these times or else I will do life and forget to take a look around at where I am right now. I look back on seasons that have come and gone, and wish for them again, or wish we would have at least appreciated them more while they were here. Like looking back on old pictures when my nieces were little tiny girls with baby faces, and how they are growing up and learning more and more about life everyday....or how it's easy to find and dwell on the negative things, or the things that bother us about things in our life that we wish could change. I want to live in each moment and be present, be thankful for what life has for us right now. Not dwell or hang onto the past, or anticipate the future to the point of forgetting about right now, the moment that I will never have again.
"Be here now, no other place to be, all the doubts that linger, just set them free, and let good things happen, let the future come, into each moment like the rising sun..." ~ Mason Jennings.
Sometimes I have an overwhelming feeling of everything that I want to do, and i feel like life moves so quickly, and i'm lost as to where to start. I have to remember that it's ok to rest now, because i'm tired ....and my body is already working really hard to make this little baby. It is a season of rest. And that is good. Sometimes inspiration comes and takes over the bones and i have to remind myself to stay put. But it doesnt mean that these dreams exist for no reason. In fact, I am confident that these desires are placed inside for a reason, and in the right season will come to fruition.
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
6 months, and a Baby Girl!!!
It's funny when life throws a little surprise at you, and exciting all the same. When you think something is going to be one way and your brain adjusts to thinking in those terms and then WHAMMY, its different.
At 12 weeks Pete and I got an ultrasound by our sister in laws parents. SO many people told us it's way too early to tell the sex of the baby, but we took the "it looks like you're having a boy" and ran with it. She even said, "Don't quote me on this" but we did. We began our planning and nickname calling as if we had a little man growing inside, baby bubba, Liam, Finn, the name kept changing. Pete was excited to have a little buddy to teach him all the manly things, and I imagined having myself a little sidekick to chum around with....
When we FINALLY were able to go get a sonogram last week, after what feels like a loooong time of waiting, the sweet lady looks at us and says, "SORRY TO BURST THE BOY BUBBLE BUT YOU GUYS ARE HAVING A BABY GIRL!!!"
We were overwhelmed with excitement and mind adjustment and the beautiful images of our little girls face flashing across the sonogram screen. I looked at Pete to read if there was a possibility of disappointment on his face but instead he had a huge smile and said he was so excited. She looked like she was sucking her thumb for a long time but once her little hand moved away from her face, we got to see her yawn, smile, and just look pretty for us. I think Pete fell in love right then and there. We excitedly got into the car and began our phone calls to the family where everyone celebrated in our excitement and laughed at the sudden change in mindset that had to take place. I feel like it took no more then 10 minutes for our minds to wrap around a little girl. We had a huge smile on our faces for the remainder of the day (we went on a date at Cafe Rouge in Berkeley and split a burger) and talked about all the amazing things we would experience having a little girl. Pete suddenly felt the pressure of being a protector to her and felt like the job of being daddy just got a little tougher. The cute thing is, God knew all along that this precious little one growing inside of me was a girl. He knows her already, forming her and preparing her for this big world, fashioning her little personnality. I have a feeling she will be a daddy's girl, but I'm so excited for all the things I get to teach her about life and being a little lady. WE'RE HAVING A GIRL!!!!! I think the name at this point is Olivia Love. I love all the nicknames that come along with that name, and the option she will have to be called Liv. For now, I call her Livvy Love and love the femininity of it. ( : I hope she gets Pete's little blonde curls that he had when he was a baby. She could look just like her daddy and I would be so happy. ( : I think my husband is a hot tamale.
Today, I am at a coffee shop while the loft gets ceiling fans and new carpet upstairs. In a few weeks we will be getting new hardwood floors installed and basically a new kitchen. So excited to have all of this completed as the time inches closer to having a baby. I can't believe that in less then 3 months we will be experiencing parenthood. Excited and thankful for this new phase in our lives. And I LOVE that I get to share this pregnancy with so many good friends who are pregnant at the same time and due around the same week that I am! Natalie Jelavich-Day, Alison Hardebeck, Stephanie Birch-Molina, Liz Siegal, and I know there are many more...it's a baby boom!
6 MONTHS AND GROWING!!!
HOW CUTE IS PETE AS A LITTLE GUY!?!?
Friday, February 11, 2011
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
Happiest of Birthdays to my beautiful Sister...February 9th, 1980
A Sister Birthday poem, To my sister on her Birthday...
Words don't define how divine it is, to know a friendship like this,
Close because we're sisters, but closer because we've grown, and we know
everything of one another, except for the special things you share only with a lover. ( ;
How lucky I am to look to someone so lovely, who loves me for me and who isn't afraid to
tell me like it is. If I tried for a moment to imagine life without you in it, I just couldn't do it and only God knew it,
That I would need a sister exactly like you. Sitting in a room with you either talking or in silence, still remains your quiet guidance that I will always need, and you will always be the big sister and the woman I always hoped to be. Thank you for being you, and always staying true to you, and being the example that every little sister needs to look up to. I will call you and ask you questions on how to be a mom, and how to cook a dinner thats bomb, and how to be a wife thats strong. Because I know you pass no judgement, and you love me right where I am. I can depend on you and know you'll be there always believing and encouraging me toward everything that is good and beauty... I'm not the only girl who looks up to you. I know there are many more, but especially your 3 beautiful daughters it's you they so adore. You only get more lovely with age because connected with it is a more steady grace, of wisdom and beauty and stability and maturity, You're beautiful sister, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, and MANY MANY more.
Love,
Your sister
The BABY Bumpity Bump
I'm currently 23 WEEKS along, really can't believe how quickly the time has passed...especially with planning a wedding, and going to school 30 hours a week. I've enjoyed staying active throughout this pregnancy. I think it helps a lot. My exercise is walking 6 blocks to school and back, 3 flights of stairs six times a day, and an occasional Yoga class and walk along the SF bay. At 23 weeks, I feel energetic, and finally getting some inspiration back...most of the time. It's so sporatic. Like yesterday I felt like I wanted to conquer the world, and today I feel like i could lay in bed for half the day. But I dont let myself. GET UP, GET MOVING. I feel like i lost all creativity in the first few months, not to mention I was a little bit psycho. I hear most preggos can relate so I didn't feel so bad about myself, but really, there were times I felt like I was going nutso, and it felt beyond my control. Good thing I have a strong and patient man to see me through (and laugh at me) Feels good to be feeling a little more like me as this baby grows inside of me. I have a lot of respect for you mommies out there who do all of this with other little ones running around. You're amazing!
SOOOO, pictures of growth. The one of me in the pink dress was taken yesterday, just one week after my wedding. I really feel like he tucked himself away on the day of my wedding, and the spanx helped a bit too. Not that I was hiding you little buddy, mommy just wanted to somewhat feel sexy. ( ;
18 WEEKS ~ please excuse the nippin out. It was cold.
22 WEEKS
Beautiful Day at the bay, 2 days after our wedding.
23 WEEKS~notice the paint samples.
Other facts to remember about this pregnancy:
~I was queasy and nauseous in the beginning but felt better when I ate, (which was every 15 minutes).
~I craved unhealthy food, like fast food, soda, greasy chinese etc. Yummy Chow mein (Veggies and fruit sounded horrible.)
~I ate eggs every morning (i've heard eggs make some pregnant mommas nauseous)
~I started to feel better and more energetic at right around 12-13 weeks
~My biggest dread was brushing my teeth (made me gag)
~I TOTALLY have pregnancy brain and cant remember the simplest of words.
~My pelvic area really started to hurt at like 15 weeks (hurts to run) and has only gotten worse the bigger I get
~I felt Baby kicking for the first time on New Years Eve and he's been active ever since.
~Pete and I got married when I was 22 weeks (which is my lucky number) ( :
~His nickname is Baby Bubba.
~We're pretty sure we saw a penis at 12 weeks which is why I call him a boy. Surprise surprise if "He's" really a girl...
~I didn't follow all of the rules very well like "no soft cheese" I think you'll be ok...
SOOOO, pictures of growth. The one of me in the pink dress was taken yesterday, just one week after my wedding. I really feel like he tucked himself away on the day of my wedding, and the spanx helped a bit too. Not that I was hiding you little buddy, mommy just wanted to somewhat feel sexy. ( ;
18 WEEKS ~ please excuse the nippin out. It was cold.
22 WEEKS
Beautiful Day at the bay, 2 days after our wedding.
23 WEEKS~notice the paint samples.
Other facts to remember about this pregnancy:
~I was queasy and nauseous in the beginning but felt better when I ate, (which was every 15 minutes).
~I craved unhealthy food, like fast food, soda, greasy chinese etc. Yummy Chow mein (Veggies and fruit sounded horrible.)
~I ate eggs every morning (i've heard eggs make some pregnant mommas nauseous)
~I started to feel better and more energetic at right around 12-13 weeks
~My biggest dread was brushing my teeth (made me gag)
~I TOTALLY have pregnancy brain and cant remember the simplest of words.
~My pelvic area really started to hurt at like 15 weeks (hurts to run) and has only gotten worse the bigger I get
~I felt Baby kicking for the first time on New Years Eve and he's been active ever since.
~Pete and I got married when I was 22 weeks (which is my lucky number) ( :
~His nickname is Baby Bubba.
~We're pretty sure we saw a penis at 12 weeks which is why I call him a boy. Surprise surprise if "He's" really a girl...
~I didn't follow all of the rules very well like "no soft cheese" I think you'll be ok...
Monday, February 7, 2011
A bit of this and that...
OUR LOFT in it's current state...
WHOLE FOODS Rose Collection
MY HUSBAND... the day after our wedding in St Helena
THE VIEW outside our loft, Come early Spring
A LITTLE WEDDING, A LITTLE BABY...
I suppose it's time...to really start and stick to it.
I have started blogging so many times, but when life only consists of yourself, there is little to talk about and I've always felt a bit silly typing posts about the inconsistent me who wandered around, moving a lot, learning and re-learning things, trying to make something of my dreams. I know those experiences are great to look back on too. But now life feels so much more about the other amazing people surrounding life. So much has happened in the past year. In the past 6 months really. On January 30th 2011, I got married in St Helena, to the most handsome, kind hearted man I know, Peter Stocker. What will it be like to be a wife? The first week has been fun!! ( : And shortly following, on June 1st we are expecting a baby (sex still unknown~sort of) The experience of being a mommy, I have only ever romanticized about, and very soon it will be our new reality. I hear you never know how much your heart can love until you have a child of your own... if that's the truth, I can't wait to feel that love. I already love this baby and love feeling him kick inside of me (mostly in the morning and late at night) and watching my belly grow. I really started to pop this past week. He was waiting until after the wedding day...or maybe its just that I feel free to eat more now that the wedding day has come and gone. Reminder: write more about the wedding next blog.
We are doing city loft living in San Francisco, while I attend the Aveda institute for Esthiology. 3, 10 hour days a week, I tromp up 3 flights of stairs (totally out of breath at the top) to join 12 other amazing girls to learn and practice facials, waxing, make-up, massage, you name it. Something I have always wanted to do but always put on the back burner because of my dream for music. Amazing how the surprise of a baby on the way will put a fire under your booty. I feel so content, excited to dream big with a partner and best friend...I feel like the possibilities are endless with someone by your side who believes in you and supports you. I have always been a bit of a free spirit, and I feel like God put Pete in my life as an anchor and a rock who pulls my feet back down when needed.
Now that the wedding has come and gone, our newest project is renovating this loft. It has so much potential and gets so much beautiful natural light...our 1st project...picking out paint. Who would have thought this would have been such a challenge!! I have a hard time choosing when there are SO many options. What if something else was the IT color? So...the pics around our loft will consist of many paint samples scattered about our walls.. This is us experimenting, not our nutty idea of art. Ok, done for now, Lots more to post in the next few days. So inspired to Spring clean and create with this amazing 70 degree weather...LOVE it.
WHOLE FOODS Rose Collection
MY HUSBAND... the day after our wedding in St Helena
THE VIEW outside our loft, Come early Spring
A LITTLE WEDDING, A LITTLE BABY...
I suppose it's time...to really start and stick to it.
I have started blogging so many times, but when life only consists of yourself, there is little to talk about and I've always felt a bit silly typing posts about the inconsistent me who wandered around, moving a lot, learning and re-learning things, trying to make something of my dreams. I know those experiences are great to look back on too. But now life feels so much more about the other amazing people surrounding life. So much has happened in the past year. In the past 6 months really. On January 30th 2011, I got married in St Helena, to the most handsome, kind hearted man I know, Peter Stocker. What will it be like to be a wife? The first week has been fun!! ( : And shortly following, on June 1st we are expecting a baby (sex still unknown~sort of) The experience of being a mommy, I have only ever romanticized about, and very soon it will be our new reality. I hear you never know how much your heart can love until you have a child of your own... if that's the truth, I can't wait to feel that love. I already love this baby and love feeling him kick inside of me (mostly in the morning and late at night) and watching my belly grow. I really started to pop this past week. He was waiting until after the wedding day...or maybe its just that I feel free to eat more now that the wedding day has come and gone. Reminder: write more about the wedding next blog.
We are doing city loft living in San Francisco, while I attend the Aveda institute for Esthiology. 3, 10 hour days a week, I tromp up 3 flights of stairs (totally out of breath at the top) to join 12 other amazing girls to learn and practice facials, waxing, make-up, massage, you name it. Something I have always wanted to do but always put on the back burner because of my dream for music. Amazing how the surprise of a baby on the way will put a fire under your booty. I feel so content, excited to dream big with a partner and best friend...I feel like the possibilities are endless with someone by your side who believes in you and supports you. I have always been a bit of a free spirit, and I feel like God put Pete in my life as an anchor and a rock who pulls my feet back down when needed.
Now that the wedding has come and gone, our newest project is renovating this loft. It has so much potential and gets so much beautiful natural light...our 1st project...picking out paint. Who would have thought this would have been such a challenge!! I have a hard time choosing when there are SO many options. What if something else was the IT color? So...the pics around our loft will consist of many paint samples scattered about our walls.. This is us experimenting, not our nutty idea of art. Ok, done for now, Lots more to post in the next few days. So inspired to Spring clean and create with this amazing 70 degree weather...LOVE it.
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